Recapitulation
(Monologue)
(An attempt to revive the past emotion lost)
My heart feels happiness,
Relieved from tension deep,
Where to keep those eye’s lovely bliss?
The fear that always seized my Skittish Mind,
Now I am the sky with fluttering delight,
The moment you lower your Eyes and with abruptness,
You quoth: ‘ Forgive me, ” I do not love you”.
What a lovely gesture! What a pity!
Pity falls on my timid mind like a blow
Of Storm to subside Nebuchadnezzar,
Instantly the cup is broken and My Heart floats.
Without argument life flows and rejection becomes resurrection.
Butterflies of manifold colours surround me,
And with suppressed voice,
I saith: “Thanks a lot for your refusal though I am not your swain”.
With mutual affinity of being rejected I am back home,
Birds sing in the garden, water flows with mellowing sound,
Cattle is grazing and the Sun with Glory sets as never before,
Everything looks beautiful as never did I see,
Existence seems to pour on me with thousand hands,
Invitation from every core,
From birds to bellowing buffaloes.
Without love life becomes free,
As if arguments deep have wings and conflict demises,
Walking becomes infinity as choice dies,
Without love’s careful eyes life is filled with love from the recess of my being,
I am loved by existence.
Walking the way I feel you by my side not as a lover,
But someone who saves me from falling into ditch of my stupidity,
The dark dungeon of my dull concept.
I see my root well-rounded and my wings touching the sky,
Without love’s thought I am a mirror without dust,
Every tree is waving branches with nest of birds,
The cacophony and hissing sound of air,
I am a sky, mirror within mirror.
With my joy and ready mind to be refused,
You feel a little shy as if my rejoice rejects you,
You quoth: ” I feel for you for your subliminal mind, your expedite care for me and friendship, “
Those words are like waves falling to naught,
The scattering Sunrays after the setting,
My mind is rapt like the rising Sun shining to bloom the buds awaiting for warmth.
I nod my head like homeless eremite,
Seeking to find pain that deeply I cherished.
Nowhere do I find my former self,
No shadow is left to ruminate.
Now i am afraid of your kind gesture,
Do you have second thought?
I try to findphilosophy to soothe my mind,
The more I find words
The more confusion draws,
All philosophers have died in me and I am close to divinity.
With empty heart I am busy listening to the sound on sound,
Like a king I embrace the whole existence,
The silence within silence.
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