—they take the books
the crates
of eighties 12-inch singles
a few dozen letters
from Manila
LA
Seville
they take
my stinky trash can
and cracked plastic chair
the rickety
plywood shelves
eleven photos of my mother
leaving me
with one
They take
the dim shots
of my brothers’
young faces beside mine
They take away
the clean sheets folded
among the soiled ones
the hand towels
stained with fevers and shit
and official
notices of all my debt
stuffed
in a box
with three dead flies
oh!
and the tangled brush of a woman whom I loved
for one whole week
which
remembering her
makes me
lift my hand
as if to propose half a prayer
or to illustrate
the best way
to answer a deaf king
is to drop
a fist
on a heavy table
in place
of blasphemy’s
last syllable
They take it
all
from a cold
rented
five-foot space
and
when I can’t pay
they cross out my name
double- shackle
the gate
fill every
proper form
and price
the pitiful lot
for the block
They call me
to cough
up
over
and over
say: explain yourself: I don’t
have the cash
Shame
is like you’re made
of 10,000
beautiful doors
and every day
you try to keep them
all
from flying open
at once
They reach inside
and take
the boxes of shoes
and old shirts
the third-hand
scratched up
oak desk
I heaved up
twenty steps
overlooking
West Grand Ave
With their battalion of metallic
hands
they’ll take away
silence
They’ll take away touch
They’ll take music
too
which is when
I‘ll stand up
alone
and walk toward you
and offer a few fingers
for you
to lead me
to an empty floor
and sway
They’ll take the light
They’ll confiscate
my teeth
and leave
the knives with no handles
They take it
all away
They take away
weeping and
take away laughter
Not last to go
are the goats
as if
I could forget
the curses
And Ha-Haaaaa!!
they’ll take
my eyes
and they won’t even eat them!
They have taken
so much
I am standing
now
somewhere
at the end of a road
which leads to a beach
beside a sea
that a million ghosts
keep crossing
leaving everything
I once had
everything
I’ve become
everything electric
in a muscle
to make one
miniscule
move again toward
The Beautiful
in that wacky wandering
in that bloody
path
in that smoky
inventory
of a quarter century
in that ambling
in that sprint toward
every gorgeous
living thing
no matter
how tortured
or peaceful
I am going
I am almost completely gone
I am stepping away
Watch me
as I leave
the forks
I leave
the hammers
I leave
the bones
I am left
with love
I leave
the boiled coins
the thin shells
of swans
I am left
with love I leave
the latches and bolts
open
I am left again
and again
with love
I leave
and
I leave
and I am
left
again and again
and I can’t seem to shake it
the rage leaves me
and leaves me
again and again
and love is left
it is all
that is ever
left
and today
I am blessed
I am the last thing
burning
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