We tell each other about our fantasies over
the phone, like how he wants me to touch him
under the table at a bar, or how I’d like for us
to have our way with each other in a moving
vehicle in the middle of the night, and maybe
the windows should be down, letting us feel
the breeze at 3 AM, and I’ll reminisce on simpler
times of body shots and grinding at clubs—
and we move onto dreams, dirty dreams involving
each other, and I tell him about the dream I had
the night before, of us locked in a room of glass
walls, making love in front of a revolving door
of audience members coming in and out, like a mixed
reviews exhibit at a museum of contemporary art,
and with each new person entering, he enters me
a little deeper, and I moan a little harder, a little
faster, a little crazier—positive feedback loop, yes,
eyes rolled behind my head, and I’m such a fan
of modern architecture, but tonight, I wonder if there
actually is a cure for loneliness, other than finding
someone long distance to pass the time with, maybe
something a little more, and I think about how
celebrities freak at the sight of all-glass houses,
their lives on further display, and when I play
simulation games, my avatars always put on a show
in all-glass rooms, and I think, at heart, we’re all
exhibitionists, who want every single grand thing
this world has to offer, like the Romans with their
Corinthian columns, or what about Renaissance art,
for instance, Donatello’s naked beautiful boy David
working it, foot on Goliath’s head, and on the phone,
I’m hungry for this man I share fantasies with, but
for real, I’m also hungry for dessert—
something decadent like coconut and sago soup,
and any recipe that calls for coconut milk
is always a winner, so wash and cut
your 2/3 lb. of fresh taro into thick slices,
then steam on a plate for 30 minutes, until
softened. Press to purée. Soak your sago
for about half an hour, then boil two cups
of water. Add in your sago and cook until
it turns transparent. Take a sieve and dip
in cold water, removing any stickiness.
Drain well. Boil 2 ½ cups of water. Add
in sago, sugar, and taro purée. Bring to a boil.
Add in coconut milk (the best part!).
Bring to a boil and pour in evaporated milk.
Mix well. Serve hot or cold. But really, cold.
And I’m hungry for this man I share fantasies with,
and doesn’t a photo just make you crave the real
thing, the real flesh even more, he asks me, and yes,
that’s true, and I picture all the masterpieces of
nude beauties with the softest skin in the world,
the way it feels so real on canvas, then the way
I wish I could touch him over the phone tonight,
and oh, I crave and I crave and crave and crave.
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