I have suddenly realized I have lost it.
I have lost the joy that was in my life.
When did that happen?
I don’t know the exact day…however
as near as I can figure out, it happened
slowly. Ever so slowly…almost unperceptively.
Of course the joy in ones life manifests itself
through that in life that one loves. And so…
mine…my joy, slowly left…as those I love were
no longer in my life. Some of it left, when I
moved…and left behind the drooping willows that
fronted the house I no longer have. The house
where so many beautiful memories were born.
Lots of it left…when the friends of a lifetime
were house in places I no longer went to. It left when
I stopped the ritual of fine dining in places where I
was known by name. It left with scores of doormen,
and servers that I had grow found of.
Most of it…most of my joy, left with family…when came
the day when holidays and other celebrations no longer
was a part of my life.
I miss the joy in my life. I miss all the loved ones
that I shall never see again. Some dead…some
scattered like leaves in the wind, to the far
corners of the earth.
As I grow older, faded memories of joy become less
vivid. Until…a day like today…when something
..or someone reminds me…
Of Lost Joy…And Fading Memories.
© Joe Fazio
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