When love gushed out
of me too cloudy- not the amber
it should be-
and I couldn’t control
my permeability or the journey
of my capillaries,
I grew heavy
with liquid, gravid
with disease of the nut-
shaped gland lodged within
my twists of brain.
I wanted to run
backwards through ontogeny,
far from dry
land, for I couldn’t
concentrate or conserve
my wits or salts.
The sea seemed
the only safe place
to let go
and live again-
a return to where
it all began, before
the urgency and burn
of anything human.
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