my mind
my body
and i
all live in one place
but it feels like we are
three completely different people
i started writing ‘home body’ at a time i felt completely disconnected. this book was a way for me to process my mental health. for me: home body is a symbol of survival. in 2018- at the beginning of this writing journey i felt like i was 3 completely different people. confused and lost. my mind was a frantic mess doing it’s own damn thing. my body wasn’t speaking to my mind. it hurt and it felt numb. and i – i felt like i was watching life happen to me from somewhere behind a fuzzy television screen. totally unable to make the situation better. this is a lot to share. i know. and honestly if this year hadn’t gone as it did i don’t think i ever would have shared such details in my captions. i woulda just posted these poems with some emojis and let you interpret them 😂 but i’ve felt more connected to all of you this year than i ever have so i’m sharing 🙈stillness- routines- and rituals helped transform those diff people into one. sometime in april when i was showering (lmao why do so many profound ideas come in the shower 😂) i felt something magical. a shift. i felt my mind melt into my body. and my body melt into my mind. and i felt myself stepping into both of them to wrap us all together. i’m not sure if any of this makes sense. but sharing in case you can relate and wanna share any more insight haha would love to discuss.
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