Are You Raping A Fifth Grader?

So many secerts
Dark and dangerous that I fear you are hiding
Trembling with a cold fist clenching at my heart
Aching to ask
Yet so very afraid of the answer
I wonder if I will ever be able to bring myself to ask you
The unaskable
The unthinkable
Are you raping a fifth grader?

In her eyes
I see such fear
Such terrible fear
Whenever you come near
From her lips
I hear what I want to believe are nothing more then lies
God I pray that they are lies
Wicked hellish lies
Because if they are not….

I’m not sure how
If we can even go on
Longing to stand by you
Forever at your side
But only if you’re not a monster
A criminal sleeping in my bed tonight
Then sinning in hers the very next
Makes me sick just thinking about what you might be doing tonight
All alone in the dark with a defendless child

Soon you’ll be home
Soon all too soon I will be forced to ask
This buring horrid question
Haunting me both day and night
Tossing and turning in my sleep
Praying that you have not been leading an innocent sheep astray
Gulping down handful after handful of pills
Just to calm my anxious nerves
Just to give to me the courage to ask you at long last tonight….

The unthinkable
The unfathomable question
Are you raping a fifth grader?