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The child disturbs our view. Tow-head bent, she
stands on one leg and folds up the other. She is listening
to the sound of her fingernail on a scab on her knee.
If I were her mother I would think right now of the chastening
that ridiculous arrangement of bones and bumps must go through,
and that big ear too, till they learn what to do and hear.
People don’t perch like something seen in a zoo
or in tropical sections of Florida. They’ll have to buy her
a cheap violin if she wants to make scraping noises.
She is eight years old. What in the world could she wear
that would cover her hinges and disproportions? Her face is
pointed and blank, the brows as light as the hair.
“Mother, is love God’s hobby?” At eight you don’t even
look up from your scab when you ask it. A kid’s squeak,
is that a fit instrument for such a question?
Eight times the seasons turned and cold snow tricked
the earth to death, and still she hasn’t noticed.
Her friend has a mean Dad, a milkman always kicks
at the dog, but by some childish hocus-pocus
she blinks them away. She counts ten and sucks in her cheeks
and the globe moves under the green thumb of an Amateur,
the morning yelp, the crying at recess are gone.
In the freeness of time He gardens, and to His leisure
old stems entrust new leaves all winter long.
Hating is hard work, and the uncaring thought is hard;
but loving is easy, love is that lovely play
that makes us and keeps us? No one answers you. Such absurd
charity of the imagination has shamed us, Emily.
I remember now. Legs shoved you up, you couldn’t tell
where the next tooth would fall out or grow in, or what
your own nose would look like next year. Anything was possible.
Then it slowed down, and you had to keep what you got.
When this child’s body stretches to the grace of her notion,
and she’s tamed and curled, may she be free enough to bring
mind and heart to that serious recreation
where anything is still possible–or almost anything.
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I have never enjoyed those roadside overlooks from which
you can see the mountains of two states. The view keeps generating
a kind of pure, meaningless exaltation
that I can’t find a use for. It drifts away from things.
And it seems to me also that the truckdriver’s waste of the world
is sobering. When he rolls round it on a callus of macadam,
think how all those limping puppydogs, girls
thumbing rides under the hot sun, or under the white moon
how all those couples kissing at the side of the road,
bad hills, cat eyes, and horses asleep on their feet
must run together into a statement so abstract
that it’s tiresome. Nothing in particular holds still in it.
Perhaps he does learn that the planet can still support life,
though with some difficulty. Or even that there is injustice,
since he rolls round and round and may be able to feel
the slight but measurable wobble of the earth on its axis.
But what I find most useful is the poem. To find some spot
on the surface and then bear down until the skin can’t stand
the tension and breaks under it, breaks under that half-demented
“pressure of speech” the psychiatrists saw in Pound,
is a discreetness of consumption that I value. Only the poem
is strong enough to make the initial rupture,
at least for me. Its view is simultaneous
discovery and reminiscence. It starts with the creature
and stays there, assuming creation is worth the time
it takes, from the first day down to the last line on the last page.
And I’ve never seen anything like it for making you think
that to spend your life on such old premises is a privilege.
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Your yen two wol slee me sodenly;
I may the beautee of hem not sustene.
-Merciles Beaute
When, in the middle of my life, the earth stalks me
with sticks and stones, I fear its merciless beauty.
This morning a bird woke me with a four-note outcry,
and cried out eighteen times. With the shades down, sleepy
as I was, I recognized his agony.
It resembles ours. With one more heave, the day
sends us a generous orb and lets us
see all sights lost when we lie down finally.
And if, in the middle of her life, some beauty falls on
a girl, who turns under its swarm to astonished woman,
then, into that miraculous buzzing, stung
in the lips and eyes without mercy, strangers may run.
An untended power–I pity her and them.
It is late, late; haste! says the falling moon,
as blinded they stand and smart till the fever’s done
and blindly she moves, wearing her furious weapon.
Beauty is merciless and intemperate.
Who, turning this way and that, by day, by night,
still stands in the heart-felt storm of its benefit,
will plead in vain for mercy, or cry, “Put out
the lovely eyes of the world, whose rise and set
move us to death!” And never will temper it,
but against that rage slowly may learn to pit
love and art, which are compassionate.
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